Re: Entry from April 11, 2010
So...It's weird that I'm "Re-ing" other entries huh? I think so too. But really, this is what I should be doing: following you up on past events. Unfortunately.
So. That Facebook drahhhma? You have no idea how much drama it is. Well...was..LOL
The WORST part of it though? Even after all that accidental "work", I don't even think N hates me! I know, right? You're probably thinking WTF. Like me...hopefully. Otherwise there might just be something wrong with you too...But really, what in the world do I have to do to get this person to not just seriously dislike me, but hate me. I feel like I've done everything, well the worst things anyway. Any thoughts? No? Well, I'm sure this isn't a common problem. But it would make life oh, so much easier.
But really, WTF! I've been the worst kind of person. If you (N) hate me, I'll hate you, and everything will then be wrapped up in a nice little package.
PS. I feel like a TOTAL wuss except wuss isn't the right word for it... I would be the worst evil mastermind ever. Get halfway through and then spill the beans about everything to someone walking down the street past my universal death laser and eventually have to go to an insane asylum (only cause the judge who ruled my case was jealous and wanted my plan for himself) (Wow. Perhaps a nice padded, white room with a cozy white jacket wouldn't be such a bad place right now...)
Showing posts with label N. Show all posts
Showing posts with label N. Show all posts
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Re: WTF? (There's just this thing about ya)
Re: Entry from April 10, 2010
PLEASE. SOMEONE. ANYONE. Shoot me in the foot. Both feet, so I'll learn.
PLEASE. SOMEONE. ANYONE. Shoot me in the foot. Both feet, so I'll learn.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Dear Dumb [expletive]
Facebook can only access so many people. I find a world-wide website a much better channel for thought.
A few things to say about this "note" before I actually respond.
1) Learn to put commas in the right place. You always misplace them, and it's become a pet peeve of mine.
2) It's funny that you think "v" would ever talk bad about me without me knowing
3) You've never "listened to me" since you've barely heard my voice
4) Obviously I'd know who I am. I don't have an identity crisis like someone we know...
Alright now:
Dear Dumb [expletive], <--that is where the comma goes btw
I don't like you. I have never liked you since I heard your name when I found out you were cheating with my boyfriend. You are a sl*t, and there are many stories, including ones from your friends, to prove it. I never wanted to get mixed up in your "relationship" (if you can call it that). You should tell your "boyfriend" to stop being so in love with me, if you really want anything to change. I can't change who I am, it's not my fault that he still wants me (correction always has wanted me) more than you (Yes, I know he will deny it, but don't worry the truth comes out anyway). If you want me to say sorry for that I will, but I am not the one you should be having a chat with. I shouldn't be the one to blame for "his" shortcomings, and the issues that you two have with each other. Nor should I be to blame for the numerous times you two have "broken-up"; I was never talking to your "boyfriend" when you broke up and it is not my fault that he would come to me to talk about how you hurt him. Another apology: sorry for being a nice person.
Please don't take your anger at the world, your "boyfriend", or gargantuan body out on me. I'm sorry God hates you. Take it out on people who will, in the future, give a rat's ass.
Sincerely,
Your Pal,
"Ugly B*tch"
PS (commas don't go here either!!!) If it makes you want to die...then just please, do it already.
PPS Please don't make me have to sully my beautiful site with drama about you ever again. It's unbecoming and unnecessary.
in response to:
Dear, Ugly Bitch
Looking at you, Listening to you, Hearing a certain someone (V) talk about you, makes me want to die!
:)
Ps, You know who you are
A few things to say about this "note" before I actually respond.
1) Learn to put commas in the right place. You always misplace them, and it's become a pet peeve of mine.
2) It's funny that you think "v" would ever talk bad about me without me knowing
3) You've never "listened to me" since you've barely heard my voice
4) Obviously I'd know who I am. I don't have an identity crisis like someone we know...
Alright now:
Dear Dumb [expletive], <--that is where the comma goes btw
I don't like you. I have never liked you since I heard your name when I found out you were cheating with my boyfriend. You are a sl*t, and there are many stories, including ones from your friends, to prove it. I never wanted to get mixed up in your "relationship" (if you can call it that). You should tell your "boyfriend" to stop being so in love with me, if you really want anything to change. I can't change who I am, it's not my fault that he still wants me (correction always has wanted me) more than you (Yes, I know he will deny it, but don't worry the truth comes out anyway). If you want me to say sorry for that I will, but I am not the one you should be having a chat with. I shouldn't be the one to blame for "his" shortcomings, and the issues that you two have with each other. Nor should I be to blame for the numerous times you two have "broken-up"; I was never talking to your "boyfriend" when you broke up and it is not my fault that he would come to me to talk about how you hurt him. Another apology: sorry for being a nice person.
Please don't take your anger at the world, your "boyfriend", or gargantuan body out on me. I'm sorry God hates you. Take it out on people who will, in the future, give a rat's ass.
Sincerely,
Your Pal,
"Ugly B*tch"
PS (commas don't go here either!!!) If it makes you want to die...then just please, do it already.
PPS Please don't make me have to sully my beautiful site with drama about you ever again. It's unbecoming and unnecessary.
in response to:
Dear, Ugly Bitch
Looking at you, Listening to you, Hearing a certain someone (V) talk about you, makes me want to die!
:)
Ps, You know who you are
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Cause I'm a ninja
ZOMG I lol at Facehbook drahma.
Sadly, I may have instigated some today.
Sadder to say: it was fun...
I finally like that N hates me. It's much easier to hate someone when they hate you back, unlike before when he'd cling to me like a lost puppy. Really, how can you kick a lost puppy? It's much easier to bitch-slap a grizzly bear.
Grizzly bear metaphor? That must mean it's time for bed.
Sadly, I may have instigated some today.
Sadder to say: it was fun...
I finally like that N hates me. It's much easier to hate someone when they hate you back, unlike before when he'd cling to me like a lost puppy. Really, how can you kick a lost puppy? It's much easier to bitch-slap a grizzly bear.
Grizzly bear metaphor? That must mean it's time for bed.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
WTF? (There's just this thing about ya)
OMFG
Excuse my language, bad grammar and the follow emo-tastic entry. I haven't yet read my last entry, so I'm not positive but I think this one follows along the same lines. But I am seriously starting to feel like I should be wearing heavy eye make up, teased hair and bangs in a 45 degree angle.
I know that I'll never understand them (N and F), but I wish and plead and HOPE that the next time I will know better than to get involved. EVERYTIME I say this, everytime I make a fool out of myself when N leaves me behind for F. Everytime I say "Nope, not again. I'll talk to them out of the goodness of my heart but never again will we be friends." Not only do we become friends but even he says that it just all falls right back into place. The stupidest part? It usually only takes a day or a conversation. That's how pathetic I am. After everything that happens I can't even stay mad or angry or dissapointed or hurt for ONE conversation. I don't know what it is about him. With every other single person who's even slightly hurt me or pissed me off, I've cut them out like ...a coral reef sting...? But with him, I have no idea what it is...just like I have NO idea WHY in the world they keep getting back together. After the cheating, the lying, the hitting, the yelling, the going-out-with-every-other-kind-of-person, he STILL runs back to her when she calls. I hate that. I hate her for doing it, and I now hate him the same for continuing it; even after all we talk about and all he talks [LIES] about he still OBVIOUSLY goes back.
Most of all, and worst of all, I hate myself for being such a pathetic wuss, and continuing to let either of them anywhere into my life.
No more.
Please someone shoot me in the foot if I do it again.
ps. expect me to have stubs at the bottom of my legs during the next entry.
pps. see, i even know it'll happen
ppps. gorsh, i hate myself.
Excuse my language, bad grammar and the follow emo-tastic entry. I haven't yet read my last entry, so I'm not positive but I think this one follows along the same lines. But I am seriously starting to feel like I should be wearing heavy eye make up, teased hair and bangs in a 45 degree angle.
I know that I'll never understand them (N and F), but I wish and plead and HOPE that the next time I will know better than to get involved. EVERYTIME I say this, everytime I make a fool out of myself when N leaves me behind for F. Everytime I say "Nope, not again. I'll talk to them out of the goodness of my heart but never again will we be friends." Not only do we become friends but even he says that it just all falls right back into place. The stupidest part? It usually only takes a day or a conversation. That's how pathetic I am. After everything that happens I can't even stay mad or angry or dissapointed or hurt for ONE conversation. I don't know what it is about him. With every other single person who's even slightly hurt me or pissed me off, I've cut them out like ...a coral reef sting...? But with him, I have no idea what it is...just like I have NO idea WHY in the world they keep getting back together. After the cheating, the lying, the hitting, the yelling, the going-out-with-every-other-kind-of-person, he STILL runs back to her when she calls. I hate that. I hate her for doing it, and I now hate him the same for continuing it; even after all we talk about and all he talks [LIES] about he still OBVIOUSLY goes back.
Most of all, and worst of all, I hate myself for being such a pathetic wuss, and continuing to let either of them anywhere into my life.
No more.
Please someone shoot me in the foot if I do it again.
ps. expect me to have stubs at the bottom of my legs during the next entry.
pps. see, i even know it'll happen
ppps. gorsh, i hate myself.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Something is not right with me
Is insanely outraged at how rude people can be. Not just regular strangers either...but people that you could trust and that you were "friends with".
What does that word even mean nowadays anyway? To me a friend is something you have things in common with and that you also have a connection with...you can't have one without the other; someone who you can trust; someone who is loyal to you - someone who would rather defend you and become an outcast themselves than back-stab you; someone who genuinely cares about you, your interests, your feelings.
Considering all those things...I think that the number of true, by-my-definition friends that I've had in my life I can count on one hand. And I don't even need to use all my fingers!
Oh and a special quality that a friend needs to have for me, besides all of the above...? *I* need to not get bored/annoyed/have strangling feelings for them.
Now, this is not to say I haven't had a lot of people who are friendly, concerned (genuinely or not...), or nice to me. I have. But "friends"? They are extremely few and far between. For the most part it's been the loyalty/back-stabbing OR the me-getting-ridiculously-annoyed-of-them obstacles. For example, "N" will come back into my life every few months (why I allow this I doubt I'll ever know), and say how "he's" "missed me" and that "I'm important" and that "he" "likes how we can talk to each other". Now, let me let you in on a very important fact: "He" only does this when his (pardon my language) skank-ho-bag girlfriend and "he" are not getting along or on one of their many many break-ups. During these times "he" will never fail to A) get me to talk to "him" again B)get me to be friends with "him" again C)profess his love/like (depending on how long they've been apart for eg 1 day...1 week? Yeah, it never lasts long...) for me and how he wants to be with me.
And even though this is a pattern that hasn't stopped in oh...about 3 1/2 years, I never stop falling for the ruse (excepting the undying love bit). And that just makes me disappointed in myself! How could I, the person who has willingly and voluntarily cut people out of her life permanently so many times not do it to this person? (Quick segway, but not really because these are examples: Two "best friends" in junior high said "I don't like you anymore" so I stopped talking to them the next day and forever since. A "best friend", who I became friends with because of those two other girls, was the first and only person to know that I liked a boy-best-friend for the past year. She moves away. She didn't know him. They meet, because I introduce them so she can finally know who I'm talking about all the time...and begin dating a month later, after she claims "she didn't know I liked him at all" ---anyway....back to the topic at fingers) Because. I'm best friends with "his" sister. Ugh. How my life attracts drama like moths to a flickering light bulb on my porch.
I just wish that I could one day have friends (more than the one...and that one...the sister of the douchebag? even her...after 3 1/2 years, I'm on the outs with...but this is the only other time I've actually felt hurt about losing a friend) that are genuinely loyal, and care about me. Is that too much to ask? Perhaps...maybe I'm just being kooky....but a girl can dream, right?
Oh. Whatevs, I dont need your permission! I will dream anyway...bitches.
No. Kidding. I didn't mean that. <3
What does that word even mean nowadays anyway? To me a friend is something you have things in common with and that you also have a connection with...you can't have one without the other; someone who you can trust; someone who is loyal to you - someone who would rather defend you and become an outcast themselves than back-stab you; someone who genuinely cares about you, your interests, your feelings.
Considering all those things...I think that the number of true, by-my-definition friends that I've had in my life I can count on one hand. And I don't even need to use all my fingers!
Oh and a special quality that a friend needs to have for me, besides all of the above...? *I* need to not get bored/annoyed/have strangling feelings for them.
Now, this is not to say I haven't had a lot of people who are friendly, concerned (genuinely or not...), or nice to me. I have. But "friends"? They are extremely few and far between. For the most part it's been the loyalty/back-stabbing OR the me-getting-ridiculously-annoyed-of-them obstacles. For example, "N" will come back into my life every few months (why I allow this I doubt I'll ever know), and say how "he's" "missed me" and that "I'm important" and that "he" "likes how we can talk to each other". Now, let me let you in on a very important fact: "He" only does this when his (pardon my language) skank-ho-bag girlfriend and "he" are not getting along or on one of their many many break-ups. During these times "he" will never fail to A) get me to talk to "him" again B)get me to be friends with "him" again C)profess his love/like (depending on how long they've been apart for eg 1 day...1 week? Yeah, it never lasts long...) for me and how he wants to be with me.
And even though this is a pattern that hasn't stopped in oh...about 3 1/2 years, I never stop falling for the ruse (excepting the undying love bit). And that just makes me disappointed in myself! How could I, the person who has willingly and voluntarily cut people out of her life permanently so many times not do it to this person? (Quick segway, but not really because these are examples: Two "best friends" in junior high said "I don't like you anymore" so I stopped talking to them the next day and forever since. A "best friend", who I became friends with because of those two other girls, was the first and only person to know that I liked a boy-best-friend for the past year. She moves away. She didn't know him. They meet, because I introduce them so she can finally know who I'm talking about all the time...and begin dating a month later, after she claims "she didn't know I liked him at all" ---anyway....back to the topic at fingers) Because. I'm best friends with "his" sister. Ugh. How my life attracts drama like moths to a flickering light bulb on my porch.
I just wish that I could one day have friends (more than the one...and that one...the sister of the douchebag? even her...after 3 1/2 years, I'm on the outs with...but this is the only other time I've actually felt hurt about losing a friend) that are genuinely loyal, and care about me. Is that too much to ask? Perhaps...maybe I'm just being kooky....but a girl can dream, right?
Oh. Whatevs, I dont need your permission! I will dream anyway...bitches.
No. Kidding. I didn't mean that. <3
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Replacement Girl
So, you know that "certain person" I mentioned? The one that is a sibling to my "significant other"??? Well I forgot to tell you an important part of this chapter. I am in a relationship with that certain someone now...on Facebook...that doesn't make it official does it...?
PS I swear it's just to make *their* ex-significant-other jealous. The only reason I'm going along with is is because I hate her equally...actually, probably WAY more. And she's pissed so...Yay :D
PPS Did I mention that I also used to..."be with" this certain person?? Not for real...really. It sounds strange..remember I said it was a long story? So this makes it more weird...Not to mention the fact that...the night before last this certain person was making some..not so subtle hints to me about..earlier times.
I'm SORRY. I know I'm being extremely vague and playing the teenager-ridiculously-confusing card...and I would mention names, really! I would, except that I'm not sure who's eyes see these messages...Best left unmentioned. Even though if lurking eyes did happen to read this they'd would know who they are anyway, if they are any of the the above-mentioned people.
Alright. I'll let your thought processes (thought proci...is that the plural? lawlz) rest for now. Until I have more info, or leads, at least.
PS I swear it's just to make *their* ex-significant-other jealous. The only reason I'm going along with is is because I hate her equally...actually, probably WAY more. And she's pissed so...Yay :D
PPS Did I mention that I also used to..."be with" this certain person?? Not for real...really. It sounds strange..remember I said it was a long story? So this makes it more weird...Not to mention the fact that...the night before last this certain person was making some..not so subtle hints to me about..earlier times.
I'm SORRY. I know I'm being extremely vague and playing the teenager-ridiculously-confusing card...and I would mention names, really! I would, except that I'm not sure who's eyes see these messages...Best left unmentioned. Even though if lurking eyes did happen to read this they'd would know who they are anyway, if they are any of the the above-mentioned people.
Alright. I'll let your thought processes (thought proci...is that the plural? lawlz) rest for now. Until I have more info, or leads, at least.
Hey Boy
OK so I shouldn't have swore that I would write! But I've been busy...and not just in a "I want to see you but I'm so busy" way that a bf says to his annoying gf who won't leave him alone. But I really have missed you and been busay.
Guess WHAT!!!
The Vampire Weekend concert was last Sunday :) It was amazing!! The experience sucked...but they were so so good live! I couldn't believe that they didn't sound like other people who sing live...ahem...Avril Lavigne...(live or recorded, I suppose it's the same lawlz). Did I mention that VW brought their own chandeliers?! Mhm, three of them that would sometimes light up to the beat of the song :) Oh and their backdrop was a huge "Contra Girl" as I call her. The cover of their 2nd cd...except GIANT AND sometimes during a song her eyes would like up like an evil psycho robot!
Their opener was a girl (woman?) called The Blow. She was ...strange to say the least, but I'm pretty sure that's what she was going for. She was really good though, better than most guests. Listen to "True Affection" and you'll be in love too. (Hey Boy is reallyyy good too :)
On another note, SPRING IS TODAY! 11am! My favorite season (minus the bottom of your pants getting gross from slush); I heard birds today!!!
Oh and in case ANYONE is interested...A certain someone (N) has seemed to find their way into my life again. I don't think that I've mentioned this person on here...possibly ever :S But it's a long and complicated journey; the gist is that they screw me over tons of times but I'm "significant other-ed (:D)" with their sibling, therefore cannot get rid of them. And so when I am forced to start talking to them again I tend to get too attached...until they screw me over yet again (never seems to fail). And so the hideous cycle continues...Hopefully (I'm sure I say this every time) this time they'll be nice and not go back to the [insert DOZENS of expletives and derogatory terms here] ex-gf again.
MUSE is on the 29'th of March! It's supposed to be one of the greatest concerts in N. America...or the world...? Anyway that should be supa AWESOME. I really wanted to go to Simon and Garfunkel in May but guess what? Tickets start at $70(!!) and go to $550(!!!!??!!). So I guess I won't see them before they pass...(lawlz)
I think you're up to date now...
PS I am now a Costa Rica specialist! But still have to complete the research/attractions part of the report :(
PPS I am now a Israel specialist (which makes me more happy than Costa Rica haha, and I did it for fun)
Guess WHAT!!!
The Vampire Weekend concert was last Sunday :) It was amazing!! The experience sucked...but they were so so good live! I couldn't believe that they didn't sound like other people who sing live...ahem...Avril Lavigne...(live or recorded, I suppose it's the same lawlz). Did I mention that VW brought their own chandeliers?! Mhm, three of them that would sometimes light up to the beat of the song :) Oh and their backdrop was a huge "Contra Girl" as I call her. The cover of their 2nd cd...except GIANT AND sometimes during a song her eyes would like up like an evil psycho robot!
Their opener was a girl (woman?) called The Blow. She was ...strange to say the least, but I'm pretty sure that's what she was going for. She was really good though, better than most guests. Listen to "True Affection" and you'll be in love too. (Hey Boy is reallyyy good too :)
On another note, SPRING IS TODAY! 11am! My favorite season (minus the bottom of your pants getting gross from slush); I heard birds today!!!
Oh and in case ANYONE is interested...A certain someone (N) has seemed to find their way into my life again. I don't think that I've mentioned this person on here...possibly ever :S But it's a long and complicated journey; the gist is that they screw me over tons of times but I'm "significant other-ed (:D)" with their sibling, therefore cannot get rid of them. And so when I am forced to start talking to them again I tend to get too attached...until they screw me over yet again (never seems to fail). And so the hideous cycle continues...Hopefully (I'm sure I say this every time) this time they'll be nice and not go back to the [insert DOZENS of expletives and derogatory terms here] ex-gf again.
MUSE is on the 29'th of March! It's supposed to be one of the greatest concerts in N. America...or the world...? Anyway that should be supa AWESOME. I really wanted to go to Simon and Garfunkel in May but guess what? Tickets start at $70(!!) and go to $550(!!!!??!!). So I guess I won't see them before they pass...(lawlz)
I think you're up to date now...
PS I am now a Costa Rica specialist! But still have to complete the research/attractions part of the report :(
PPS I am now a Israel specialist (which makes me more happy than Costa Rica haha, and I did it for fun)
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
